At The End

So I went to see the Lion King last night which was absolutely amazing. I’ve always wanted to be that person, you know, who goes to the theatre in the middle of the week with good friends and then dinner after. To be able to do things like that…to have that freedom. Fortunately for me, a pair of $70 tickets feel into my lap, I don’t even know what to say about it. We were four rows back - it was amazing. In a lot of ways it gave me some perspective: I really want to get my life started. I want to get out there, meet people, do interesting things, go interesting places. In a lot of ways I’m really sad that things aren’t exactly working out for me, here in Seattle. On the one hand, I really want to be successful here. I’m not exactly sure why that is, but it’s true. Then, on the other hand, I’m seriously unconvinced that I was ever supposed to be here to begin with. It’s interesting how things happen. One decision can either make or break your life.

After going to Vancouver, British Columbia, last weekend, I decided that maybe living there could be kind of cool. The culture there is really young, which would be a welcome change. And the other thing is that it’s far enough away where I could really do things my way, without anyone’s interference. I could make my own decisions. For anyone who doesn’t know, my parents, more specifically my mother, is still extremely influential in my life. I hate confrontation, and because of that I avoid doing anything she doesn’t want me to do. It’s annoying, but for right now, necessary. Because of everything we’ve all been through together, I feel like I owe her at least that – the respect, even though she abuses it.